lovedreamed

funny how it always works out

2009-08-03T05:33:17Z

Today begins a 26 -- well now 25 -- day trip through hell.
Alec is staying with his mother this month.
[rant]
Or rather, the pathetic excuse for a mother that he is so unfortunate to have.
This is the thing about her;
she's a grown, adult woman,
divorced from Alec's father, who he loves very much.
And if you believe that a mother and son cannot hate each other, you have obviously not seen these two.
She seems to enjoy ruining both of our lives and justifying it to herself....apparently she gets kicks from ruining the reputations of two teenagers, one of them being her own son, who she strangely expects to love her unconditionally no matter what she does.
WAKE UP, bitch.
Her response to me being suicidal? She told Alec, "If she kills herself, maybe you'll feel sorry for what you did."
WHAT THE FUCKKKK, lady?! HE, of ALL PEOPLE, should feel sorry, for something you caused?!
The selfishness of the human race never ceases to amaze me.
Its a long story in addition to that, but I suppose I shouldn't go into more detail. Its upsetting, first off....

Anyways. For the next 25 days, Alec is pretty much out of my life, as he is with his mother, who grounded him because he stood up to her.
The only advice I could give him was to be polite, but cold.
She wants Alec to need her, but she is so twisted up in her head that she drives him -- and me -- away.
I always wanted to have a mother in law that I got along with...obviously not happening.
Oh well. Alec doesn't want her in his life and in a few years we'll be done with her (:

Alec loves three things: his father, his dog, and me.It's painful to recognize that but it's partially, if not mostly, his mother's fault.
Karma is such a bitch. I know that.

[/rant] sorry bout that....it just frustrates me.

pink cigars expolding in the night

2008-10-26T16:11:26Z

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whheee! pinkcigar is my new graphics journal [erm, techincally a community, but whatever]

so from now on you can find all my graphics there (:

please consider watching it!

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requests! (to receive, not to ask)

2008-10-25T17:32:08Z

so. basically, if you have a request, DO NOT COMMENT ON THIS POST.
comment on the requests post, please!
anyways.
onto the requests.
OH! by the way, if you don't want anyone else to snag it, just comment and i'll take it down once you get it (:

for wwlcd :

fanmixation

2008-10-13T02:08:19Z

fanmixes are so fun (:
therefore, i bring you little known souls; a twilight edward/bella fanmix :D
enjoy!

front:

back:

lyrics:
01. this is for keeps:
"The streets are dark, my pulse is flat-lined
as I'm running to you
You sit completely unaware of what I'm about to do
The air is thick with tension much like when we are together
My fangs are aching as I'm pondering about you and I forever

As I round your corner
I am nervous that you won't be my lover
I knock three times and hope that my pale complexion won't blow my cover
You answer the door with your innocent face
Would you like to leave this human race, tonight?

Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally we'll live our infallible love"

02. stolen:
"And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in your highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart"

03. this is for real:
"You are the night light
Ripping through my wicked world
How you make it sparkle and glow,
Before I lose control
There’s just one thing you should know

This is for real, this time I mean it
I’m coming clean, please don’t let go
I said from the start, that you could take it or leave it
I’d preferred that you keep it

I had some nightmares,
Clawing at my skin and bones
I nearly did explode
You smoked the demons
Gave me back my feelings"

04. bullseye:
"Now I'm into you crazy
Don't know how you got me started
I'm not an easy target
You hit the bullseye
You hit my heart

I'm surprised the way you affect me
Like an arrow penetrating my heart
Naturally you seem to just get me"

05. runner:
"All I need is to close my eyes
And I run
Run back to you
Yeah and I run
Run back to the one I love
This is the way I spent the day
Uh-huh
Did you, too?
Running back to you
And when I dream
I only see us
Do you too?
Running back to you

Trapped in ice in an avalanche
Here it comes, the pulse pounds and I'm ready to go
Mind fills up and it races fast
But it's erased the moment you close your eyes"

download -- here

poets on the couch [49 icons!]

2008-10-12T03:42:29Z

hooray! icons (:

[ 16 ] team edward / jacob
[ 18 ] twilight (YAYY! for all these new stills)
[ 15 ] taylor swift

by the way, 4 of the twilight ones are tacked on at the end, as I forgot to add them the first time through (:
AND! you can use any of these as bases (especially #s 27 & 40!)

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start pages?

2008-09-12T19:04:18Z

okay, so i finally downloaded safari [which i already love!]

basically i'm trying to pretend i have a mac, with safari & itunes & rocketdock (:

but anyways, i made a start page for my homepage with all my links image-mapped onto it,
& i was wondering if you all would be interesting in using one?
there's a screencap of mine below the cut; it has all my school links on it

i would be able to do it in just about any font you care to send me, with up to seven or eight links. i could probably do it in multiple colors...but it probably wouldn't look very good.
so what do you think?

twenty stock icons

2008-09-10T20:24:31Z

[ 11 ] green
[ 9 ] balloons

credit excited_sodacan
no hotlinking...dum dum dum DUM [it's evil!]
go ahead and recolor / add text / add textures / whatever (:

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icons from the vma's [16]

2008-09-08T17:28:25Z

so apparently, the VMAs were suckish (my cable is still out from the hurricane, so I wouldn't know) BUT i did make some icons (:
i'm not going to list the celebs individually; just ask & I'll tell you (:
GASP. there's even one of RPattz! (:
& TWO of Bill! Yay!

rules;
you can use these as bases [they're already colored; so add all the text & textures you want!]
credit me, please
no hotlinking! that's bad. veryy bad...dum dum dum DUMM.

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more friends-only banners! yay!

2008-09-07T02:40:45Z

six friends-only / locked banners for your general use (:
no stealing or hotlinking, as always.
& let me know which ones you're snagging; thanks!

teasers;

o1. ashley tisdale, lucas grabeel, & corbin bleu

o2. miley cyrus & ashley tisdale

o3. hayden panettiere

o4. emma watson

o5. emma watson

o6. miley cyrus

enjoy!
OH! & i apologize for the fact that these are mostly single images...but i like coloring them (:

banners! woohoo!

2008-09-05T15:30:40Z

hurricanes really spike your photoshop usage.
here are four banners that you can use as friends only / headers / whatever strikes your fancy
they're all blank, so please don't steal & redistribute (:
OH! & please please save to your own computer! thanks :]
OH #2! below the cut is pretty image heavy; dial-up, enter at your own risk.

teasers;

01. Vanessa Hudgens

02. Amanda Bynes

03. Hayden Panettiere

04. Miley Cyrus

(sorry shlee, i kinda stole your little technique; remember, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, dear.)

enjoy! (:

10 light textures

2008-08-17T21:30:02Z

whee (:
there's 10; all 1024 x 768

here at deviantart!

icons! yay!

2008-08-05T21:04:23Z

more icons (:

[12] harry potter & the goblet of fire
[11] grey's anatomy

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14 icons

2008-08-04T03:36:22Z

have fun! credit excited_sodacan , please!
[ 01-06 ] twilight
[ 07-14 ] gossip girl

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Created with angelamaria's Icon Table Generator @ Bauble

friends only (:

2008-08-01T20:09:30Z

all my graphics ~~are public;~~ are moved to my graphics community, pinkcigar! watch it for updates (:
but if you want to listen to me ramble, comment & I'll add you! (:

layout
want quick facts?

i like the beatles, all time low, rooney, boys like girls, motion city soundtrack, cute is what we aim for, powerspace, queen, flight 409, journey, jason mraz, jeff buckley,relient k, the veronicas, the spill canvas & lady gaga. mostly alternative; pop; dance; that kinda stuff. & lots of 60s-70s-80s-90s rock (:

i play the guitar; not amazingly, but competantly.

i'm a leo; bossy, in-the-way, creative, loud, outgoing, the whole shebang.

& i like photoshop and green tea lemonade. preferably at the same time.

fashion design, philosophy, physics, graphic design, law, and theatre are some of my preferred college majors, if i get around to college.

what can i say? i'm a honors kid. classify me as you like; but i'll always prefer being a geek.

OH! almost forgot; my bookshelf includes shakespeare, the whole twilight series, douglas adams, rocket boys by homer hickam [the best summer reading book of my lifetime], harper lee, and lots more of the classics. most are good; some are icky.

if my personal-life type entries confuse you, here's a quick guide to my odd personal life:
ashley (elitestatus ) is my bestest friend ever. enough said. (& evie, pinkstonewall, is my other best friend)
alec is the guy i've been dating for a while; & whom (or who?) i'm insanely madly in love with. please don't call me naive about being with him; if it works out, it works out.
chris / christopher is a guy i hooked up with & dated for about three weeks. we broke up because....
i used to cut; or rather, i cut when we were going out after he asked / harassed me to stop.
i don't anymore, though;
but if you go through my past entries, they don't make much sense unless you know that.
occasionally i ramble about that too.

the end! that's me in a nutshell. thanks for stalking me (:
OH! & i like semicolons & backwards smilies (:

gossip girl icons

2008-08-01T19:53:20Z

[15] mostly blair + some chuck
credit lovedreamed/excited_sodacan
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resources

2008-08-01T01:58:33Z

resources: [more to be added]

textures:
swimchick.net
outspoken-kate.com
deviantart.com
livejournal:
babliz
cielo_gris
innocent_lexys
keoni_chan
eveningwalk
latexandleather
ennife

brushes:
moargh.de
swimchick.net
outspoken-kate.com

images:
amandahq.com
blakelivelyweb.com
blairandchuck.com
homeofthenutty.com
edwardandbella.net
screencap-paradise.com
leaky-cauldron.org
ashley-pictures.com
emma-watson.net
mileyfansgallery.com
the veronicas

graphics: headers

2008-08-01T01:05:08Z

please credit me if you use
+ uploading to your own server would be nice!
see resource post for, um, resources (:
add whatever text you like.

teasers:

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enjoy & remember to credit! :]

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